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Finding for the boy across the other fence
Monday, June 7, 2010
Sometimes... when someone tells me. " Don't fall in love"... I wonder why. Is it because I'll get hurt. I'll bleed. I'll cry for no reason, knowing that he will never do the same.
Pain is a never ending cycle, that goes and goes, spreading like a plague. Killing anyone and anything. But somehow... when I met the Boy Across The Fence. Life seemed to be more real than anything that I've imagined.
I'm not mean to live alone nor turn this HOUSE into a HOME. Sometimes sins can never be erased, like the blood that flows in your veins. I may be from this family. But I will NEVER be a part of it. I don't belong here. I belong in a world of illusions. Where there are mirrors at every corner, waiting to show me my ugly relflection.
My current mood... I feel lost and drowned in the middle of a sea of lies and hope that shun me. We had a fight again. I pray to God He hears me. I have everything that any girl would want, but what i need most is a home to go to. Not a battle field. Not where we scream and shout and hope that things will be good.
When I was a small girl, I wished to be a princess of a far away land, marrying the prince, and living happily forever after. But sadly life isn't like that. It's a closed box. A room filled with gloom. That's why, I am breaking that box. And I am going to find the Boy Across The Fence.
And that's you. I love you. <3
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Finding you was easier than giving you up
Labels: depression, hate, home, love
kimi. @ [Monday, June 07, 2010]
