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At the end of the rainbow....
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
In every life, we have memories that are good and bad. Old texts that make you smile and some just a waste of time to read. If anyone on earth never have these sort of things, I'm sorry to say... you are just not human.
I was re-reading my old journals, flipping through old and torn pages. That wrote all of my journeys. The things I wrote, said and felt made me remember things. It's like I went back to my old self. I wasn't known as Kimi back then. No one knew me. I was satisfied being by myself, all alone. I found peace that way. I'm not the Dalai Lama, but you get the point.
When I see some of my old pictures, I wonder if I have changed. Become something commercial, so that I'll be accepted. There are so many people these days, they give a damn about what the world thinks of them. They can't see the beauty in them. They are blinded by everything.
When we were kids, out parents would teach us everything from good and bad. But when they never taught us was how to get back up when life knocks you down.... That lesson has to be learnt by YOURSELF. You need to learn some things yourself. But sometimes you can;t find a place where you can be truly happy. A place of self-belonging. We all carry the weight of the world, and it is falling down. How much longer will I last?I am caving in. It's okay to cry. It's okay.. to be me.
The only hope I have left is knowing that someone is waiting for me silently at the end of the rainbow. Hoping that I will find him <3
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