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The seventh day....
Thursday, July 22, 2010
I was reading the bible earlier. And it said God build the earth in 7 days, then asked Noah to build an arc because God wanted to flood the earth for 40 days and nights. That's how the earth was re-made. Well enough about the bible. Today's whole point of posting is that... I need to let of some of my sadness....
As some of my friends know, I went for my ultrasound and stuff. I got the results, but no point in posting here.
AND NO. I am not pregnant!
Why I related to re-building of earth was because I want a re-building of Kimi. I want to change. I want to be different. I know that I have some flaws. And sometimes it has hurt others. It has hurt myself. I just realized that I have been suffering from Major Depression and I was living in denial. Why did I do that?
All I need was attention I guess. Jealousy, was my number one sin. I get jealous all the time. Trust me. And my depression was caused by a big scar in my life, Thank God I have Him, My baby, evey, Joyce, Jerica, Trisha and all of my other friends to cure me. I have such a happy life, and I have came to realize everyone complains about what they don't have. And they make a big deal out of it. But what they don't realize is how to be happy for what you have and learning to live with it.
I have live without love from my family for 17 years. I learnt to live without it. And I never did complain about it. Instead I learnt to be happy about never having love. Giving love is always better than asking for it. The more you share, the more you give, the more please I'd be. And I learnt to find love from that. And I am happy now. At this very moment. I am happy.
And I will never let any bad thought take this away from me. I am going to be happy everyday. Even if it does rain on me. I'd have everyone else to make the rain stop and keep the sun shining.
Thank you.
You know who you are~
i want to find a new me when I look in the mirror. the same Kimi. But a happier heart.
kimi. @ [Thursday, July 22, 2010]
