OMFG! I AM IN A FAN GIRL MODE! I've never felt like a 13 year old girl who loves her Yuri manga and enjoy listening to Gackt while getting into the mood in a LONG LONG TIME! ><>
Have you ever had the feeling of squealing in the middle of a mall when you see that perfect shoes that fit that $600 Chanel dress? Or ever felt like you had a guitargasm when you played the guitar in a crowd? Or even felt that you want to flirt with that cute hottie in your Math class?
I have. And it happened to me. Today. Well... last week... It just occurred to me that... HE IS THAT GOOD LOOKING!
Yeah... Maybe for the past few months, I thought he was cute. When he looked at me, I thought it was sweet and stuff. But now... NO. When he does look at me, I blush into a crimson red shade and have to shut my eyes half hoping that he would disappears ><
Is that love?
You know... I love the way he looks at me. Teases me. Plays with me. Bullies me. Holds my hand. I feel safe ><
Is that love?
I've never felt that way before when I see a man or a boy. I feel like my insecure 13 year old self. Who would wear make up and make sure my dress looks perfect. And I would practice smiling on the mirror. And remember what not to do when he is around... I feel so perfect. And the best part of it all is when he told me that he loved me... I remember hugging my pillow and smiling so hard and I couldn't wipe it off my face. That's love. I bet.
I feel so tingly inside when I stare at his face. Even now when I talk to him... It feels so hard. Like I don't want to mess up. I don't want to lose him as a friend or a person. I love him too much for that. But minus the title. I love him for who he is. Minus the mask, I see past all of that. I just can see him. Only him. And I don't give a damn what the world says about this love I feel.