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Saturday, August 14, 2010
I remember having so much to blog about. But now that my fingers are on this keyboard... I just can't say or write anything. My entire head... Is blank...
Well I do have something now. These past few days have been crazy! I mean absolute madness! I swear I was losing my head! I shouted at my best friend, Cuz of my epic mood swing. I am so sorry... I love you okay. It's just bad things came crashing down all at one time
Secondly, I had this big fight with my mom. She just doesn't get it does she? I come back home everyday. I barely go out. My life revolves around keeping this household into a stable condition. And she blames me for going out ALL THE TIME! only on FRIDAYS! I can't deny God and my cell meetings. Even If you don't get it, I don't care! I do try my best to be everything you ever needed... So stop finding fault in me... And daddy... Stop making me feel useless? I want to do Digital Animation.. Stop making me do things that you love. My happiness means more right now. I'm sorry if I sound selfish. But it's my future right now. Not yours... You are going to leave me. But I'd still be standing here with him... Get it?
Thirdly, Evey and I texted so much yesterday. Getting to know her all over again... feels so awesome. I do owe her loads. She is the best human ever! And now we have a secret in common ^^. I love you so much. I really do... I'm really happy that we fixed all that broken bridges to get back to where we started. Even if sometimes... Life is gonna bitch slap you... I'd be there for you. Bitch slapping life for you. I promise ^^
We'd figure things out all over again okay?
Fourthly... I just wanted to say this as a general topic. Lying. There isn't a point in lying... You should have told me the truth. It really hurts... you know? Loving you and watching you lie all the way. It was as if you had a self destruct button... And you wanted me to press it. ....And you made it seem so fine. What about the rest of the world, who loved you so much? Didn't you think that would hurt Really... Good or bad.. We love you. You'd always have a place to come home to.. I promise...them too? Didn't you think that... Lying was bad? It really burns deep into out soul, when you know someone you love lies... Really... But I still do love you.
