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Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Okay. It has been proven, my mood is horrible. I've been listening to angry, emo music.
I don't really know what to write down... How to explain what I feel. Maybe I just... feel very
very empty.
You cloud your words and shade them away. You took everything and you don't care about it.
I feel very abstract. And I can't even read myself, even if I looked in the mirror, I keep wondering who that person is. Minutes feel like hours, and hours turn to days, and days feels like weeks... I just can't feel you with me right now. Right now... I feel like just another person in your life. Who didn't change anything. You keep telling me think whatever I want...
I'm going to do just that.
Joyce said, whatever happens, it's God's way of telling you it's
time to change. But what if I am
not ready for change? Not ready to move on. Yes, I have been in longer relationships, but nothing like this...
I've never felt a touch of warmness before, a single kiss that could make me falter. I feel that way... But right now... you're pushing me further and further away... Deeper... into the cold water... And what's left of me?
It is as if... the part... that made me love you is dead... I guess... that part is asleep... I guess you want me... to fall asleep... And not feel anything when I am with you
I'm holding a small thread of me... of our love... And I am not letting go... Should I?
I don't want to waste another moment, saying things that we were never meant to say...
If you just breathe... for a moment... you'll realize that everything is alright. Trust me?
I wonder if you realize, that I've been here. Waiting. I could've been with any other guy... or girl. But I'd pick you over and over again. They always say 60% of LDR never works...
What if... we are that 40%? That tried to make everything work....
Just breathe...
"I'm trying to find that feeling of warmness when i talk to you, but i cant seem to find it. . ." quoted from... you...
kimi. @ [Tuesday, October 26, 2010]
