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My Lonley Stranger
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
It's been raining heavier than usual and the thunder and lightning has been playing my mood. Slowly like a mellow symphony. Nothing is more painful that hatred, hatred for someone whom you have loved long ago.
I wish I could tell what is on your mind, what you're thinking about when I catch you staring at me. But needless to say, you never did love me like you said you did. All those empty promises and dreams that we made, weren't real. You just felt like it was proper and just to make believe every situation we ever had.
You wanted to feel something. You wanted to feel accepted. You wanted to feel like you needed self pity. You wanted someone to give you all of that, but instead of finding closure, you found me. You picked this one person out of the world's 7 million population to corrupt. And you corrupted me like a plague that ran the world and poisoned it slowly.
I had such a hard extirior, but my interior was messed up. I forced myself to act that way. Trust no one, love no one. You were just like me. You were going through the same things as me. Especially your dad. I trusted you. I knew what it was like to be abandoned. To feel like you needed that father figure around your life.
And beleive me, you were so different from the rest until I realized that everything you did, everything you said and lied about was fake.
And the worst part is that, you blammed it on me. You never felt guilty about what we went through. I broke and tore my walls down for you, because of all the people that I ever knew, I felt like I could trust you. You were like family to me. But right now, we're just strangers.
And no one has ever killed me as much as you did.
kimi. @ [Tuesday, November 22, 2011]
